A Better Son/Daughter

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and dying

And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence

But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
or son
And a real good friend

And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends

And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful

You'll be happy

All your friends like heavy metal? All your friends are MORONS!

I found it interesting (and endlessly amusing) this morning when I noticed someone on my msn list with the nickname "MAIDEN ARE STILL GOD!" I thought to myself "See, people that still like Iron Maiden can't even spell 'good' properly."

I guess all that beer and shitty music just wrecks the brain, huh?

Anywho I've had these lyrics in my head for a couple of days now and I figured I wanted to post them.

Reminds me of how my life used to be. Great thing about that being that it isn't anymore.

Isn't it amazing how things work out? I mean, you think to yourself at the time of overwhelming crisis "I can't cope with this. My life is ruined." and such things, and a year down the track, you couldn't see how you could ever have been as happy as you are if all that awful shit hadn't happened.

Anywho. Broken record mode this morning. I'm sure this is the same old tune I always sing. On to the lyrics!

:-)